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Last night I couldn’t sleep, I was thinking about my first day of school.
Usually, I have a lot of friends, would I have any?
Usually I love the teachers, would I this year?
I was so worried asking myself questions and trying to get a new behavior because this time it is high school.
No more naps, no more recess, no more running around and playing tag with my friends I don’t think I will fit in, I don’t think I like high school, I don’t think I can act mature.
“Oh for god’s sake why can’t I relax?”
I ask myself.
I try to go back to sleep, but something kept on whispering in my ear “High school, high school”.
I was scared then I started turning on each side of my bed finally I slept.
Before I knew it I slept and dreamed of being the most loved one in the school. People everywhere in my dreams were talking about how nice I am.
Teachers were saying that I am very smart and that my English level is so good that I could survive in college.
When I woke up something new just happened to me I was so excited but not scared anymore so I quickly dressed up and went for breakfast.
“Wow how come you feel so relieved today rosy?” asked my little brother.
I just smiled and thought if a can handle college, then high school is nothing.
My first day of school was a great dream.

His name was Jacemo,
later angilcised to Jack.
A nondescript little man
distinguishable only by
the tattooed numbers
on his forearm.

He came with nothing
and left with even less.
Save a scribbled note
in Yiddish that read;
'Please, will some kind
person say kaddish for me?'

He stood outside in the rain and thunder, didn't like his life so he started to wonder

If he could go back and change his life
could he save his kids
could he save his wife

he found an album filled with a bunch of pics pictures of his wedding reception with his best man Rick

He had felt as if his heart was ripped out stomped on by others and thrown about

He found a paper with A+ at the top
It said "Dad is my hero"
and that's where he stopped

days went by and things never got better the days were nice but they always seemed wetter

he stood outside looking at the sky so blue looked down at a picture smiled and said "I miss you"

MOM
Wendy Nicole Castein

You see her
But you don’t see me
She does good
You praise her
I do better but I get nothing but “good job”
I am invisible to you
When I do exist
You assumed I’m doing something wrong
You never listen to my side
You always assumed I’m wrong
I may not have good hearing
But I still have feelings
When you want something
I give it to you
When you want the truth
I give it to you
But when I wasn’t to exist you plainly ignore me You tell me You love me But how can that be When I don't exist Can't you see......
Can’t you see the pain I’m in
Can’t you see how much I need you
Or how much I love you.

I long, to hear the bluebirds, and see the children out at play.
I long, to tell you about, Chestnut Street in May.

I long, to smell the new mown grass, as we pass into June.
I long, to tell you about, the summer coming soon.

I long, to see swim lessons start, and all the summer fun.
I long, to have the cook outs and such, welcoming everyone.

I long, to smell the Lilacs, and see the birds as they fly.
I long, to tell you about, Chestnut Street in July.

I long, to see the boys, fishing by the lake.
I long, to see the August fairs, that I will try to make.

I long, to know the things I know will not pass away.
I long, and want to tell you, about Chestnut Street, my way.

Have you though about today?
Does it matter if the sun shines?
Where is the breeze?
Will the rain fall?
Does it Matter
Thinking about toady?

My mind is clutterd
with little thoughts
and heavy thinking about myself.
and perhaps my friends and family
Does today matter?
It is hard to tell.

I see the clouds
and some sun
I see wild flowers waving in the wind
But does it Matter?

Which flicker of wind will catch my mind?
What blinding sun will cause me to turn down the visor on my drive?
No for me, it is the smell in the air
That will cause my attitude to change.
And thinking about the day
maybe my heart will be lifted
and that would be good.

Bitter
Chrissie Burke

Drop me a note,
when you get where your going.
Remember my laughter,
when your in a crowd.
Count my freckles,
when the dark becomes restless.
Whisper my name,
when the voices get too loud.
Reach for my hand,
when the sidewalk gets too slow.
Smell my perfume,
in the rain that falls around you.
Recognize my poems,
in an old book of thoughts.
See my favorite colors,
in the tiles of your floor.
But don't look back,
to look for my face.
I'll drop you a note,
when I get where I'm going.

If i never hear your voice again and you'd never hear mine there's one thing i need u to understand i didn't leave u behind i'll be the girl you'll never know i want u to know i hear the pries inside your soul i know the pain is unbearable but i have a storng felling u will carry on even when im gone u can't possible feel anythig remotely real i lost the key to your heart missed placed it in a room with a million keys cause when i fall i fall to deep never thoght that i would stumble i'm tripping all over my feet i got to let u go my mr.invisible invisible love i think i needed u more than u needed me i had to find a way to escape my realty into your fantasy i had to leave i was surrcating i need to feel as i could breath i can love u endlessly but i know for a fact u couldn't love me i can give u my heart and soul but you'll always be my mr invisible invisible love

Fall at his feet by the mercy seat
The fragrance of him just so sweet
Like no scent you have ever smelt before The scent of love which from him pours You will know that his presence is all around You also will hear heavens sounds The sounds of angels as they sing Will in your ears forever ring They sing worthy worthy is the lamb Holy Holy is the great I AM

His love never falters it never fails
The sweet fragrance of love as we inhale You can’t describe it but you know he is near Embracing you saying child don’t fear As we fall at his feet as we worship and praise Our Father Our God the ancient of days Fall at his feet by the mercy seat The fragrance of him is just so sweet Like no scent you have ever smelt before The scent of love which from him pours. . .

Forever... Stay in my heart,
like a fire which I feel every time -
we can't be apart
even for a while...

Forever - keep me in your hand,
like a piece of paper to write a poem -
my sweet husband,
the light of my eyes...

If
by Ruth Walters

If you can see gold in fields of corn

and hidden promises in smiles.

If you can take rain and make it sing

and see the beauty of early spring.

If leafy glades can steal your heart

and you long to portray their colours

then the path you walk is a poets path

and soon we will be lovers.

The oozing scent of honeysuckle wept from her neck.
Eruptions from a burning apricot-red source lifted; And a panting heart swooped, swiftly, and softly, upon the gentle Earth.

A harp-playing temptress now waters her garden, Brimming with violets and lavender. The sweet peas Climbed upon the terrace alongside runner beans that Grew and grew, and grew until bursting with ripeness They exploded with passionate moans.

A harp-playing temptress knew
The long, luxurious laps she took upon a vine Whilst the sun was at its peak, and Music Had her eyes upon a beautiful satin sea And she danced and sang.

Yet He sent a curse along with a vulture And wilted the petals and trod on the beds; Then with his rotten, corpse of a lip, Spat upon the heads of the temptress and harp.
The long, distorted moans deep within her breast Were drowned and suffocated by choirs and church bells.

NOBODY can tell the journey of love
NOBODY KNOW when your love will come
NOBODY KNOW how long your love goes..
NOBODY KNOW when yourt heart will be complete...
BUT I KNOW sometimes love is a moody emotion..
YOU might feel happy now...
BUT next second...
YOU're hurt

im tired of loving someone else's man... possesion her portion must have worked cos ive lost passion i still love him so...
but ive lost passion...
i don think about him the way i used 2
to me his just a memory i can't wait to get rid off...
will never 4get how he toyed with ma emotions...
she's one speacial girl
to be loved by someone like him
foolish for me of loving you
Tangled in me
Vains flowing, streaming
Trembling, shaking
My soul aches,
My heart breaks
i don long for you nomore
i cant believe i felt for your schemes...
even your best friend tried to warn me....
yeah guess you did really did break my heart while you sitting withe her wrapping izipho...
forgetting isipho that i gave you which was my heart...
you never loved me...
i was the bitch...
and she was your wifey
clever of me we did go 2 far
ndiyavuya....cos know i know the truth...
but where do i go from here

love is like a heart never perfect when you start but as u keep on going your love just keeps on growwing but if u have some issues just grab a tissue beacuase the tears u cry will always dry .....

ONE DAY I'M GONNA WAKE UP
AND I'LL BE STANDING HERE
BUT YOU WONT EVEN NOTICE ME
THIS IS WHAT I FEAR
ALL I EVER WANTED
WAS TO SPEND SOME TIME WITH YOU
YOU'D SAY MAYBE LATER
THERES THINGS I HAVE TO DO
FOR YEARS NOW I'VE BEEN WAITING
AND LATERS NEVER CAME
I ALWAYS HEARD I'M SORRY
BUT NOTHING EVER CHANGED
ONCE A HEART HAS BROKEN
IT WILL ALWAYS HAVE A CRACK
YOU CANNOT CHANGE THE HANDS OF TIME
YOU CANNOT TAKE IT BACK
I WONDERED HOW MY EYES
COULD CRY SO MANY TEARS
YET STILL LOVE YOU THE SAME
AFTER ALL THESE YEARS
PLEASE PAY ATTENTION TO ME
I'VE BEEN SCREAMING FROM INSIDE
AND YET YOU'VE HEARD ME
I MIGHT AS WELL HAVE DIED.

There's nothing more beautiful.. than a beautiful friend But you know what is awful? Coming to an end Why did this happen? Why are you so far away?
I miss you so much.. think about u every day And it's sad how we can only see pictures now..
I'm just wishing you could be here somehow.

I fell in love with you a long time ago
Though we been through alot
We neva let each otha go
Even though our relatioship for the past
three years been round and round
I dont know about you but im ready too settle
down
Last time to everyone we was visual
But the thing is i dont want a next time becaus
i want this time to be Official

For all the stupid shit I’ve done in my life I’m finally getting repaid for it. I think I’ve finally fallen in love but maybe everyone was right it’s not who u love but who loves u. I’m trying to be patient trying to give this my all but my all is never seems good enough. maybe its because I’m not a size two maybe I’m not the nicest person maybe I’m a bit miserable but I’m going to love me I’m going to try for me. This stupid ring this material thing that I want seeking security but which I’ll never have. I keep trying I keep failing life seems to throw so much my way at once, it’s tearing me apart I have no one, nothing no place to call my own. My refuge, my solace, my comfort place, my best friend refuses me. I wear my heart, my soul, my emotions, on my chest, I love, I want to be loved but what is love?

A mazing how your Always on my mind
B ecause you Beautiful you are always mine C ant Control the Continuous thoughts I have for you D own for whatever you want me to Do E verytime we Encounter Each other I feel so many things F orever I am here For you and willing to do anything G ive me your everything and i'll Give you the same H old my Heart close to yours so I may take your pain I cant explain everything I feel for you J ust know that every feeling Jamed in my heart is true K nowing that your Kiss is only mine means so much L etting me Love your body with each and every touch M y life belongs to you and I see your life belongs to Me N oone and Nothing could ever take away what I see O ne day and One night we will be together P eople try to Persuade me but you are mine forever Q uiting on our love, I Quote "I wont let it happen"
R emember that I really do love you with more than a passion S o many things I want to Say, but So little time to Share T ogether forever, because I know that you will always be There U nderneath me and Under everything I hold you in my heart V ery Vital to me that you do the same so we'll never be apart W hat I want in my life is you and thats all X tremely important you are to me so my love stands eXtra tall Y our all i ever asked for and Your all I need Z ero Zooming to infinity my love from A to Z

We only met for a moment,
Beside a lichened wall,
In fact, to be perfectly truthful,
We didn’t meet at all.

The road was a ‘B’, and narrow,
The bend was an ‘S’, and smart;
I was passing a grocer’s van,
You a pony and cart.

I may have touched the grocer,
It’s hard to be sure, of course.
At an aggregate speed of a hundred
We certainly scared the horse.

We almost met for a moment,
Instead we just passed by,
In short we missed each other,
Though God alone knows why.

I got half a thumb on the hooter,
Did you get a toe to the brake?
I reckon a mile between us
Before we began to shake.

Did the landscape go pink at the edges
For you as it did for me?
Did you drop to a thoughtful thirty
For a mile, or two, or three?

We only met for a moment
(As I think I must have said),
But another moment either way
And we’d both of us be dead.

And the most alarming aspect
Of having so nearly met
Is that by this time tomorrow
We’ll both of us forget.

The night and witch seat for beer,
the war in water splashes good.
Blood and decay...oh woman have no fear, even when these guns are in a bad mood.

The vultures are the ones to feast at war, vultures and humans all alike.
Bones and wounds...woman watch the door, your crippled son these hawk-like jets will strike.

Who's the witch? Here, see him here,
the night he seduces with flying lights.
the blood that spills is the beer,
the nignt and the witch become our fight.

Oh Lord Jesus how do I start?
You have healed my broken heart
You have made my life whole
and restored my soul.
How dreary life would be
If me and You couldn't be...
Together...
I love speaking to You every moment of the day Telling You everything in every way You are my very best friend and my greatest love I enjoy so much being alone just with You I don't need the world to feel complete Just You and me...Is all I seek You're always there like the wind in the air No money in the world can buy what we have together...My Guy...
No matter what life throws my way,
I will never go away...
From You Lord...
I have so much to look forward too,
knowing one day I will be with You
You're the greatest gift I have ever been given To know You died and made me a forgiven soul so clean to be with thee Oh Lord how priceless it is to see I love You And I know You do to...
Thank You. Thank You for it all.

I got an beautiful sketch,
all i see is your face,
i shake it all day,
but it doesn't erase,

when I close my eyes,
and you are there,
Moment I open my eyes,
still you appear,

you are always there in my dreams,
day and night,
no matter where i look,
you're in my sight,

you're stuck in my eye,
and wont go away,
its painfully thats true,
but i hope that you stay,

you are not here,
but i still see your face,
no matter how hard i shake,
you can not be erased...

Once we roamed freely onto this disheartening earth, looking for piece in such things or what ever it took.
Some brought truth some didn’t.
Nerveless things did happen,
great things.
Which seems to pass away, soon to be forgotten, as we’ve taken our steps onto the earth.
Farmers on the moon proudly displaying their workmanship for a few to enjoy.
A gust of wind blows though a hill side which I except the honor of a third gift because I was there.
Stars that give no end to thoughts and wonders as our mind cries for such knowledge.
Yet there is no denying that every thing we see is a wonder, a rock rolls up a hills and life, yes a wonder. Enjoying live takes effort, just as the wind over grass, our life will pass.

the light became in my face,
my eyes started to shine,
the red fire ball was shining
in the bright sunshine.

sounds of whisper i heard,
twingiling in my ear,
running suddenly i went
into the none-seen river.

plash,plash
it was heard,my arms moving at the same time, a curious air i smell going foward and back.

a touch of cold i felt,
five stick i see,
holding my left arm
in the time i get out of the non-seen river.

a growl of furius animals
it was heard, for a while, until
a plate came full of white rice.

pies, salad, chickens came even
a lasagna i saw,
what a delicious taste my
mouth today saw.

heading toward now, to go back
again, into the big red machine
my mom, dad and i came.

There's not a passing day that I don't think about my best friend, Especially when my wits have reached their end.
Memories carved onto my soul, remind me how he is always there, There to relieve even my most trivial care.
He gives me comfort just in his thought, Even thought it's against what I've been taught.
The hurt, the lonliness and the emotional strain, Could all be exchanged for a single moments pain.
Guess what, its my birthday, yet again,
And I wonder if it would bring me shame.
Or shame to my family and my friends,
Who have tried their best to make ammends.
There's not a day he doesn't cross my mind, If only I could the courage find.
The courage to accept him and help me out, Although my thoughts are conflicting, and full of doubt.
Would he help me out of pain, out of pleasure and all in between, Or perhaps I should abstain until Halloween.
Maybe then I won't fall deeper,
And call on my best friend.... The Grim Reaper.

IF ONLY FOR A WARNING
kevin kay-kleaverkev

our days,like ageing photographs,drained of colour,fade
shading our memories,where sunlight once played
our companion,joy,a boy we thought would never age
uncaged our souls and led the dance

chances were spent on so vast a stage of light and love
while above,dreams flew waiting to be caught
no thought for reality,carrying on the act
denying the fact that the spectre of time was unimpressed
we could only guess at the twist he would bring about
to flout our assumptions of a well applauded end
no friend was he,for you or me
we were not aware of the descending curtain

so certain of a longer run,brighter sun in which we could stand
while many hands applauded with each encore
no more time,the curtain is down between us now and forever

never a line shall pass to each
my reach cannot go beyond the veil
so ends the tale,our unpredictable story
lost,the earthly glory we did seek

Present is better
future more beautiful
that's why we read, improvise
to have better future and worse past

Past always haunts
Mother's abuses
Father's neglect
Followed by hazing in the dorm

Classmates who never cared
brother who had only anger
In the downtown alley
Alone I linger

why we go to college
to leave ignorant past behind
to earn and learn and yearn
for a life past could not give

Past is embarrassing, shameful
never lived up to it
that is why we are in present
soon to be in future

Future looks so bright
I can make future
the way I want it
the past could never give

Future beacons me
I can dream, have everything
knowing I will never
I can still have future

daddy im gunna become famous one day
and then I'll make you proud
so when people see me on the streets
they'll say my name aloud
I'll act like a princess, in every single way let me do whatever I want and do everything I say the people will look, the people will stare the children are learning but what do i care?
so what if i drink, so what if i drive
maybe if i had one more
i wouldnt be alive

Come step into the night
and everything will be alright,
Hold my hand close and tight,
Walking in this darkness of despair
fills my soul with true clean air,
I always feel safe when you are around,
Walking in the moonlight with you is like a mere fantasy, But when I look into your eyes I know that it's a reality, You're the one in my soul and forever will be, I thought I would never find you until the day you found me, You're like no other person that I've ever met before, Just being with you makes my spirit soar, Even just walking in the darkness of despair, I know that you will always be there, You are my Angel that came to me from the Heavens above, You are my magnificent and mystical one true love

The pain I hold is deep inside,
But I have way to much pride,
To open my heart and let it out,
But deep in doubt I think can change us, Leaving this realationship is a must,

The pain is hurting me so bad today,
I can't seem to get it to go away,
My heart is aching, my soul is taking much time to let go, But tell me the Hurt just isn't so,

I live my life waiting for you,
To come out of your shell and say our love is true, Each day that goes by another tear fills my eye, So I come to relieze its time to say goodbye,

A friend I wanted, a love I needed, I hug is all I asked for, So now I know the hurt is much more, Watching our Dreams fade away, There is no tomorrow, there is no today, All there is pain that wont go away,

I close my eyes and wish for love,
But when I open them I have nothing but hurt, Someone please grab my heart from the dirt, Why can't you love me? Why can't we be one, For now the pain is deep my heart weighs a ton,

I am sorry to say goodbye,
But I have a 100 tears I cry,
My heart is broken,
My love is gone,
The pain is real,
True love is what I want to feel

Waiting for the bus…..
By Ruth Walters

The market place was closin’

My feet were nearly frozen

I tried to see the bus come through the rain.

But even though I cried

no bus was in sight

and I wished I were at home

in bed that night.

Then behold, we saw a Taxi

Mother said ‘oh should we’

Baby’s cold and that’s what money’s for!

So she held up a free hand

and hailed that taxi man.

I’d never been in a taxicab before.

It was big and bright and black

and we sat up at the back

and the man who drove it was so very nice.

I snuggled up to mum

She said ‘you warmer hon?’

And I fell fast asleep upon her lap

It was the best ride I’d ever had

In that taxi cab

I thought my mum

the best that there could be

when I was three

and she hailed a cab for me.

I Love You
By:Kaila Nordgren

I don't know what to say or do
I don't know how to tell you,
I thought about it long and hard,
On how to say I love you,
Will you say okay,
Or will you turn away,
I thought about it long and hard,
I'll tell you that I love you.

-0-

i am longing for the feeling of nothingness i will be numb. i will not love, i will not hurt, i will not feel anything anymore.
i will not cry, i will not dream or wish or hope any longer.
i will not want love or accept it. i will not have children and i will not wed.
i will not be happy and i will not be sad.
i will not be me.

Know body knows how I feel, I prefer to take the darkness very still.
It sooths me like a bitter pill, as it casts its unyielding Vail.
Its fingers snub out the light again, for that satisfying meal.
The void is empty the space is still, I feel at peace in its chill.

Am I sane? Or slightly disturbed? To like the night with all its verb.
Moving like cattle, people make their way home, through the blackness to their beloved throne.
In the dead of night, I feel my heart race. I’m excited by its tender embrace.

I allow the quite to seep into my veins, nourishing me to heightened gains.
I drink eagerly from this empty grail, gaining strength from its unholy trail.
Its tonic cleanses me, purifying my heart, preparing me for another day.

There will be times in your life when you might get mad at a person … There may be times that person will be mad at you... There will be times that you might sit down and just think and wonder if everything you did was a big mistake... If you should just end everything and begin a new life... The truth of the matter is that we are all human, we all make mistakes...
Things are not always meant to fit our needs... People aren’t made perfect... If we were all perfect and didn’t make no mistakes everyone would still be alive and there would be world peace... But that’s not true...
People think of things the wrong way and take things the wrong way... Think of the things in a positive way... Things like at least you have the person you are with and not alone, that you are alive and still here ... But things get in the way... Things such as stress, outside influences, and many other things life throws at you... But you can’t let those things get to you… Because if you do it takes over you and controls your thoughts… You need to take it day by day and think of everything in a positive way… Nothing is worth being thrown away because of the way you think and because of the way you feel at that moment in life… Take a breather… Sit and relax… Think positively… Be happy… And most importantly don’t let things get in the way of your relationship with someone… Because it just might ruin it… And if you keep happy and nothing gets in the way you will be a better and happier person to you and to others…

            Another hot day!
            Turn on the largest sprinkler;
            The birds need a drink.

Helping with my highs,
and my lows,
Always sticking up for me,
when i have a foe.

Learned to cry alone
Far from his cold desire
Of possession.
Scorn in his eyes
Disguised as compassion.
Could never dig in her breast
But to end up in a hurry
Vanishing into her
Just for a while
“‘cause world’s waiting
Outside”.
Wet pillow beside her
Like an eyeless teddy-bear.
Nobody’ll kiss her
Goodnight.

Sometimes i feel so sad becouse the world around me is being so bad but at the end of the day i feel glad becouse i have your love and thats just completley mad.

you mean so much to me there is no place that i would rather be than having you in my arms.somedays i feel that you are to good for me and that you should just walk off and leave me. but no you stick by me and belive in me your like that specail angel from the christmas tree.

there are two things in the world that mean the most to me and thats me and you and you being happy and having all your dreams come true.

They open my wounds of my black broken heart,opening the agony that claws my mind.
I shut my eyes tight and pry,they tell i Saint no good,they pity me
louder and clear'er they get,speaking of my wicked evil deeds.
Should i keep on fighting,of just give up the fight?

The drugs ease the pian for a minute or two,i found my self sorry
for my mishaps and sorry for my sick drops.
I think i need a moment to just gather up my mind,i think im going crazy,im falling apart no longer love my self no longer find the in this devilish world filled with devilish angels.
I open my eyes i find the straight to grow stronger its not yet the end...as I said it before ill say it again sorry for my mishaps.

How do you go on when someone does you wrong?
To realize it's just a game you played a little too long.
Do you pick yourself up, and keep moving on?
Or do you get even with him for making you his pawn?
But if you do take revenge does it really feel sweet?
Does it put a smile on your face to see his life's not so neat?
And if you choose to pull yourself up, will it just let you down, When you find there's another with the same agenda around?

The first time you feel this feeling it will take you by surprise.
Little butterflies seem to come alive in your heart.
The feeling of anitcipation for that special someone to call, just to hear their voice.
The overwhelming feeling of joy when you do hear that voice.
The feeling of total contentment when just being held by that special someone.
A look that take your breath away

I don't wear All-Stars. They symbolize for me all that is shallow and although fashionable, completely lacking in style.

I'm not attracted to Keds. They represent all that I love, but they simply aren't fashionable enough for me.

I want nothing more than to be shallow, but only so it will bring me to the deeper ends.

I'm turning an everlasting circle. Trapped because I simply can't let go. I won't let go.

PUT YOUR TRUST IN ME, I SWEAR I WILL NEVER CHANGE.
(PROMISE). MY LOVE IS HERE TO STAY. (PROMISE).
I WILL BE TRUE FOREVER. I SAID,I LOVE YOU, I SAID I CARE ,I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE.(PROMISE)
OPEN YOUR HEART, DON'T BE AFRAID TO LOVE AGAIN.
UNDERSTAND THAT'S A PROMISE.I'M HERE FOR YOU. I JUST WANT TO SHARE MY LIFE AND LOVE WITH YOU.
RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW AND FOREVER. THAT'S A (PROMISE).

When I was younger,
I was a bit of a vandle.
A graffiti writer,
Too hot to handle.
Convicted in court,
But i still wesn't stopping.
Me and my crew,
We just kept rocking.

why do this day had to be like this?
why isnt it cheerful?
why the birds never sings?
why the sky darken?

now i know
why is it
a LIFE is full of upside down
if theres no hard time
your not a human being
just be glad,cause you still living

Of course i regret the path within i walked,when it rained it rained, we still walked,its night time now, and the moon is brite, but now i stand alone.... i wonder why, even through all this darkness the moon still shines..

I've lived with me a long, long time;
I'm going on to eighty-three.
And lately I've been noticing
that I sometimes get tired of me.

I won't say "bored," that's not the word.
It's rather more like, "Oh, so what?"
And life's quite good, that's not to blame.
And I'm content with what I've got.

But same old thoughts and same old things,
and same old, same old points of view.
They're just as good, they're just as bad.
But also, "So...what else is new?"

So, even if I don't agree
with what you say and what you do,
may I sometimes be you?

There are those that have gone on before us Some of those leave beneath us We laugh to mask the pain Feelings, Flood us like an Amazon rain

You my friend I hope faired well
To give your wings I rang a bell
Again we laugh at another bad joke
The stories of old that must be true
Or are they tails of folk

Your services hear were no longer needed But we still hold on You now look down on us Laughing at the stories and our action You ask us to listen and not cry The children will hear you sing their Lullaby

I stand alone waiting for a ghost,
There is an old man next to me,
close enough that I can smell his breath, but we do not belong to the same universe me with my endless worry, he with his cane, make a nice pair of sidewalk trash.
Passing by,
a woman with sad eyes looks understanding, I cannot help but feel fear, For when someone knows of this, we've all become homeless.

it's not about all the cheers and shouts in the stands or the people that are counting on you to make the pass or shot, it's not about what people think of you off ice it's not about the hard work taken in, to make that ice, it's not about all the practices and breaks

it's about the real momentum that you made to keep yourself going it's about the fear that you've outcome it's about the fact that you have proved yourself wrong it's about the true hockey player you have become in the end.

In those times that u were mean i still loved u i still stuck by ur side. It was rough but we got through now i wish i could go back to u. I still and alway will love u with all my heart i know that i was not smart to let u go but now i know how much i love u and i always will love u this much with all my heart. U will be in my heart for the rest of my life. U may not love me anymore but i still love u but u don't care i wish u would care like u use to but i guess my dreams r not comeing true.

Though she looks through the darkened ruins of her mentality.All she can find is a mind of insanity.Oh how has it come to be like this?She wonders through the dark abyss.Wait.......She`s not alone,she hears the voices that softly moan.Calling her name from places unknown,she cries in fear.......she dies alone.

unlimited , boundless she is, unfathomable depths of whites she
holds

the sky is the very word of beauty ,
which inspires man to achieve impossibilities,
what unseen power lies in those ever beautifiuos
clouds of the most fluffiest nature,
time and time again instigating man to those
undefined heights,
for the sheer might of conquerence,
the subject of poet,the subject
bowing in all reverence of the humbleness of lords creation ,

the oceans , what majestic power it hides in those
unfathomable depths..?
the power to shape or break into the tiniest
of crumbles of life,
unforeseen by man is all its magnitude of power,
those high mountains , rugged and a testimony to
all those vagaries of fate what gives all the courage ...?
the power of NATURE
-0-

just a helping hand somebody steer me.
usher me along somebody near me.
just a watchful eye somebody guide me.
when i trip and fall, someone beside me.
just a little nudge, somebody push me.
when i'm off the pace, somebody rush me.
just a little light, somebody throw me.
when searching for the way somebody show me.
when im in despair somebody know me.

I am a book
White from innocence
Short from inexperience
I have love,I have hate
I have tears from a bruise
And I have a time machine

I am a book
Torn from readers
Messed from friends
Wet from waiting
Naïve, not a part of me
Love always in me
Anger, a new page unfamiliar to me

I am a book
Brown from age
Long from life
Dusty from waiting
Finished and forgotten

I am a book
Unknown to the world
But I hold the greatest information of all Life in the lifeless

On that cold winters morning, silence struck the ears The horse man had left in the fray The crack of the stock whip and the click of the spurs Was all lost on that summers day

It had been a race of a life time
But old Jack had not withdrew
He pelted after that Joey, whip flying in the breeze He clicked his heals to Clancy spurs speeding up the day As they raced that Joey in the fray

The Joey made a stumble, these dirt roads were growing tough Jack reared up her riding on his noble steed A noise was heard behind him, jack speeded up with ease.
The Joey heard the noise making a quick dash for the trees.

The second gunshot could be heard from twenty miles around But strangely very strangely not one corps lay upon the ground Old Jack and Clancy left that same old day Neither horse nor rider got in the way....

I got to have it, I got to have it.
I need it in my vanes.
I got to get it, I got to get.
Whose purse am I steeling from today?
I ‘m not going to school, I’m not going to work.
I just need to drift away.
I need it in my system to make it through the day.
I have ten dollars that’s not enough I need more. So I beg, I beg and then I turn my self in to a whore.
I open my legs and ex change sex for what I need.
This drug is so addictive it’s taken over me.
I haven’t been home in days and I doubt I ever go back.
I abandoned my child which has caught contact.
Now she is special and when she grows she is going to blame me.
That’s why I will go far away and a picture of my face in her head that’s where I’ll be.
I m ashamed for her to see, how a little dose of something has taken over me.
I love my family I know I need to change, but if changing was a game I would be a looser.
My family doesn’t understand that my life is to conflicted they say that is an excuse and I am only ADDICTED

TEARS FOR THE SOULMIND...
lorael.

a tear is like a drop of soul
pure and untainted,
shed in secrecy, carefully hidden,
shed in happiness, freely given,
a gift
given to those with acceptnce,
patience,
tears.

so i run into the night
confused and lost
but i slow down because there is no end
there is no way to try and mend
only now i start to comprehend....

this is it
and now it comes back
all of my memorys are here
its almost as if they can hear
and they persist and persevere....

so i play dead
and it stops the sting....
i play dead
but the hurts not stopped, just sleeping....

5 years after we broke up, i am back where it all started.
The streets seem empty, the road before me seems non ending, Ever since the day we parted.

I was so full of myself,I took you for granted, But since you walked out of my life,I've never felt so unwanted.
I thought you would comeback, forgetting all the mistakes i've done.
But trying to lead ur life my way,wasn't the only crime i had done.

without you there's an emptiness within me, there's an irreplaceable void in my heart.
what wouldn't i give to have you back in my life, I wish i had been someone placid, instead of acting oversmart.

i Was as imperfect as a person can be,i tried to crush your soul, i admit i have been unfair to you throughout my life, won't you forgive me and accept me once more?

I have reached my last resort,i Cant defer my feelings for you any more, Life is too short to hold grudges, and love is the only reason we're leading our lives for.

I have changed my thinking and my ways now,i am not the man i used to be.
If you come back i'll love you eternally, I'll reach to the expectations that you had from me.

A Poet's Pen
Annss Mcclain

Everyday i fill the ink of the pen with thoughts, I place the pen on the paper, I write the words on the line, Verbs and Nouns express the mind, but for some reason its not just quite right.
Sometimes its for the spelling, others its just for the sound, But most the time its the thought itself I cross out.
starting all over again
A poet with an invisible pen.

I've seen the world around me come to an end no one their for me life is filled with pain the one i loved left with out saying goodbye the pain reaches up to the sky dont know what to do so all i do is cry hoping one day you'll love me the same way i can let me be the one to hold you when you cry the one you'll know will always be there the one that thinks about you in the morning my love for you is all i got you'll never be alone with me by your side if you let me know how you feel i promise i'll always be there till the end no matter what my love will always be there

That evening jogging on the beach along my friends,
miles and miles away from home, i was alone.

The sea was rolling and unrolling its carpet of blue and grey,
with what was a milk-border of foam, rolling and unrolling it
endlessly - or so it seemed.

A score of seagulls on the shore flapped their wings starchwhite,
some picking morsels from the sand.

Jogging on the beach that evening, miles and miles away from home,
i ran into a dream.

A little challenged girl, in knickers and sportshirt, was carried
by the waves to the shore and as she stepped on the beach,
i held her hand.

She walked with me, her puny feet at every step
battling with the sand, her head swayed sideward with the breeze.

She clapped her hands now and then, and broke into
an incoherent song, seemingly happy walking the beach.

I was happy too, holding her hand that evening
jogging on the beach,till the shout of friends behind woke me up.

Alone, in my room that night, i felt disturbed, sleep was long
in coming;waking up at morn i learnt,my TV had been on whole night!

Whenever we were together
Feelings of love so strong
Needing to touch each other
How could we go wrong

You always looked at me
With a yearning in your eyes
Your love leaving me weak
Thoughts still make me cry

Visions of you I now see
Imagine feeling your hands
Fingers slowly making a path
Desires are hard to withstand

Feeling nothing for so long
Only just in my dreams
Dreams can't keep you warm
It's all I have, it seems

Wishing for those days
We loved without a care
My needs always fulfilled
Our love we always shared